Thursday, 30 September 2010
University group
Since the beginning of the studying we had an idea to meet and make a little party with the whole our group, but everytime something happened. We couldn't decide which day would be the most suitable for this meeting... Anyway it finally happened :)
Yesterday evening we met and the fun began... Unfortunately, not the whole group went for this 'party', but still we had 11 people there and it was great!
We went to the bar and spent there almost the whole eve. Then we went to the Festival square (the main square of our city with the huge fountain in the center of it).There we had a little photosession ^^
Some of them you can see at my fb profile if we are friends there ;)
The night was awesome and I hope we'll have such party very soon again!
And I also want to tell my dear friends thank all of you, guys! That was great evening!
Wednesday, 29 September 2010
Autumn nights
No fresh green grass
And left no beautiful flowers
Even light of stars
Became cold and heavy clouds
Poured only cold rain on us
Moon is too pale
Nights are longer
And no fairy tale
Makes hope stronger
Is it so hard to forget
Everything that heart kept?
Please, sing for me this sad song
Oh cold wind, whisper to me
Tales of ancient times so forlorn
Call is like drop in the sea
So tiny, it's all alone
Reminding of tears and my feel
Moon is too pale
Air became much colder
And no fairy tale
Making no sense, not longer
Is it so hard to forget
Everything that heart kept?
Silent touch, every move
Secret unseen
Tears fallen for you
Pain within
Dreams became true
Now I only sing
Silence will take us once
And left no farewell, no glance
That will remind of us
Moon is too pale
Heart left in vain
Writing the last fairy tale
For my secret pain
It is too hard to forget
Everything that heart kept
Saturday, 25 September 2010
Around
Hearing calling of voices like the sea
Childish laughter on the playgrounds
Maybe this pain was made for me
Time of sparkling moonlight
Reminding me of beautiful tide
I closed my eyes and saw paradise
The only I wished to awake the feeling
Of one touch, silent breath, so deep it lies
Drawing dreams of my own
Angel's love won't fall down
Dumb prayer of my heart
Awakens both fear and believing
Washing with tears this part
My downfall
Beauty of sin
Your silent call
No lie within
Just tears of soul
With bloodred ink
Still song is now my only saviour
Lifewine that you drink
Living deep inside me forever
Friday, 24 September 2010
Beware Cold Lies
Where I have to go, what I should find
Lying not breathing under red sun ray
Every pain faded, just left behind
That depth dwells inside
Showing all beauty of tide
Setting me fly
Feel that I can't deny
Just one silent sigh
Having been asked for thousand of times
What lies beneath the truth
Still heart whispers "Beware cold lies"
I beg angels to pray for you
That depth dwells inside
Showing all beauty of tide
Setting me fly
Feel that I can't deny
Just one silent sigh
All that makes me feel
It lives dwelling within
Being a part of me
Name lying on lips is so dear for me
Seven signs to awake the memory
To show kind heart of thee
(One little meet
That's all I need)
That depth dwells inside
Showing all beauty of tide
Setting me fly
Feel that I can't deny
Just one silent sigh
Child's hoping heart
Became ones more than hope
Now it's full of love
Dream me back home
That depth dwells inside
Showing all beauty of tide
Setting me fly
Feel that I can't deny
Just one silent sigh
That feel dwells in me
Little heart prays for thee
My longing you see
Your silent dream I wish to be...
Thursday, 23 September 2010
Shadow Angel
Became so dead
End of my way
Was once said
Dreaming away, flying so far
To fall down burning my wings for pure star
Still walking my path
Nothing could hurt worse
Than broken heart's love
Oh, Christ, how it hurts
For an angel so pure and holy
I've given my deepest memory
Leading me, saving the truth of story
Shadow angel, save me or kill
Caring about a dream and dear will
Let me, just let me feel
After going to the darkness
Heart didn't beat
It rests in dead silence
But one calls for it
Giving to it your defense
Dreaming away, flying so far
To fall down burning my wings for pure star
For an angel so pure and holy
I've given my deepest memory
Leading me, saving the truth of story
Shadow angel, save me or kill
Caring about a dream and dear will
Let me feel, just let me feel
Broken dreams for a virgin
Dead poisoned kiss for an angel
Sinful wish setting soul on fire
This deep secret power of desire
For an angel so pure and holy
I've given my deepest memory
Leading me, saving the truth of story
Shadow angel, save me or kill
Caring about a dream and dear will
Let me feel, just let me feel
Shadow angel, save me from pain
Don't let me do wrong again
Please, save me one more time
For an angel so pure and holy
I've given my deepest memory
Leading me, saving the truth of story
Shadow angel, save me or kill
Caring about a dream and dear will
Let me feel, just let me feel
Dreaming away, flying so far
To fall down burning my wings for pure star
Wednesday, 22 September 2010
Petals
About bright stars above
Brightness of white
Cry about beauty of love
Long sleepless night
Moments without pure warmth
Strong wind, cold and freezing
People told that I'm so crazy
But what could I do
If they don't see truth
Autumn is here but tree is still blooming
Why is it so - who knows
It's not afraid of heavy storm and cold wind
Even time that flows
Beauty of flowers' grace made me feel it
I don't care about all crowds
Strong wind, cold and freezing
People told that I'm so crazy
But I don't care about these words
There left no heart that hurts
It's gone with last flower's petal
Waving tiny child's cradle
Singing a silent lullaby
Sending a dumb cry
Through this fatal night
Grabbing star's light
With me...
Could you see
Every dream is a part of reality
It lives in me
Gentle touch of angel's sanity
Strong wind, cold and freezing
People told that I'm so crazy
But I don't care about these words
There left no heart that hurts
It's gone with last flower's petal
Waving child's tiny cradle
Singing a silent lullaby
Through this fatal night
Grabbing star's light
With me...
It's slowly gone..
It's gone with last flower's petal
Waving child's tiny cradle
Singing a silent lullaby
Sending a dumb cry
Through this fatal night
Grabbing star's light
With me...
Follow the path leading astray
Think of me
Only once to make this way
That angels could only see
Take it till the end
It's gone with last flower's petal
Waving child's tiny cradle
Singing a silent lullaby
Sending a dumb cry
Through this fatal night
Grabbing star's light
With me...
Tuesday, 21 September 2010
Deep-Blue Paradise
Monday, 20 September 2010
Singing :)

Hello!
As I wrote before I'm a bit ill now so I don't visit university now. Today I was at home as well and had a holiday ^^ (one more).
Watching series as True Blood, The Vampire Diaries and also singing my favourite songs became a tradition of the last days... he, he. :)
At the afternoon I visited the doctor. Happy time is when you're standing in a hell long queue of angry like devil people and waiting. I've spent in such queue for 2 hours and then got that I have to stay at home for 2 days. Great!! :\ But still I feel better now.
The whole evening I'm singing the songs from Tarja's new album such as Falling Awake, Until My Last Breath, Little Lies and so on. ;)
So the evening is still nice :) Hope you all have a great time too!
Also hope to hear from you soon!
Sunday, 19 September 2010
For you...dear
Heart's Fever
Broken Internet connection...
I'm sorry for that I haven't written here for so long.
I haven't got Internet for 4 days and it was just living hell! :\
Wednesday, 15 September 2010
Truly Yours
Bright eyes wide open
High hopes unbroken
World of dreams is waiting
Little heart still has faith in
One secret meet
"My love lies so deep"
No wish to prove anything
I'm tired of lies and deceiving
Another deep believing
Turned into unrequited feeling
I've tried so hard
Wrote one then another part
But you did not understand,
Didn't find the path to the land
Of childish dreams
Without black cold sins
Could heart beat being broken?
Could words sound being unspoken?
Soul hurts because it was open
So now I'm praying for heaven
You're still so close to my soul
Almost wrote it in the song
Knowing the truth made you believe
That pure heart cannot deceive
Once silent voice was right
"If you love you should fight"
So I will keep on fighting
Fallen star will enlighten
Dark path so frighten
Giving me wings for flying
You could hate me because of this story
Erasing all words, hiding all the memory
But I can do nothing against this feeling
Just the way to express that I have within
For every verse I'm sorry
Yours, so truly
A Reason
Tuesday, 14 September 2010
Keep Silence
Monday, 13 September 2010
First lesson... :)

Hi there!
Today was a great day - the sunny weather, pretty warm outside and only one subject - Maths. It was a bit hard, but it's still okay ;)
And also today I've signed up into the dance group. Maybe I told that some years ago I've studied the ballroom dances for 4-5 years, but then I gave them up. Still I love dance, sometimes when none can see me I dance....
So tomorrow I'll have my first dance lesson and I can't wait for it! ^_^
Dreams
Every fear is just dust in the wind
Still the nightmare calls me again
This river brings me to the dreams unseen
Making scream fade away
Warmth of heart
Pain left apart
Until I could feel again
Kindness of soul
Taking it all
'till you could see me once more
Darkness' embrace like black cruel grace
Took all anguish away
Through the crowd I see only your face
Like tiny light it shows me the way
Could you believe
Or still you could not
But heart will beat
For you, 'cause I never forgot
Hate me
Blame me
Kill me
Or let me live
Shame on me
Cure lies in thee
Just don't kill my memory
Dream of child through the dying sight
That you could see
Silence of wood, dark starlit night
All that is just a dream
Who can explain why is it so hard
To love and long for another pure heart?
Why silence is tearing my soul?
Why should I be lost 'n' forlorn?
Just hear heart's call
Follow the pain
Dry the bitter rain
Make me feel again
Every scream like unspoken silence
Living in me, the dearest feeling
Every dream like the broken defense
Keeping the tears within ...
Forever I hide my deepest sense
Sunday, 12 September 2010
The Heart
I cannot feel anything 'cause you ripped out my heart
So blind 'n' callous beast drowning in lies
Slowly dying in the darkness of night
Still hoping it's death would save human lives
Words are mocking my soul
The story of your own
Both wrote life in a song
Blackhearted virgin weeping for broken dream
If only she knew that's just the beginning
She cares her deepest hope, secret oath within
That girl wrote down her innermost believing
But who cares about those hopes hidden deep in
Words they're mocking my soul
The tale of your own
Still you've written that song
That story of a dead poet praying for heaven
It lives and will live in me
But who knows what could once happen
After the last ever dream
Is gone and there is none to hold... what then?
Every word - just a shot
Dearest verse I forgot
Heart doesn't feel 'cause it cannot
My last prayer would be for the soul, so dear
One breath for the heart that's beating near
Last ever touch to awaken your feel
Remember this truth is real
I cannot see anything 'cause you cut off my eyes
I cannot feel anything 'cause you ripped out my heart
Words are mocking my soul
The story of your own
Both wrote life in a song
Words they're mocking my soul
The tale of your own
Still you've written that song
Every word - just a shot
Dearest verse I forgot
Heart doesn't feel 'cause it cannot
For my deepest fear I've lost everything
For your bitter tear I gave my last believing
And believe I'd do everything for your saving...
I cannot see anything 'cause you cut off my eyes
I cannot feel anything 'cause you ripped out my heart
Words are mocking my soul
The story of your own
Both wrote life in a song
Words they're mocking my soul
The tale of your own
Still you've written that song
Every word - just a shot
Dearest verse I forgot
Heart doesn't feel 'cause it cannot
The story of your own
Both wrote life in a song
Words they're mocking my soul
The tale of your own
Still you've written that song
Every word - just a shot
Dearest verse I forgot
Heart doesn't feel 'cause it cannot
Words are mocking my soul
The story of your own
Both wrote life in a song
Words they're mocking my soul
The tale of your own
Still you've written that song
Every word - just a shot
Dearest verse I forgot
Heart doesn't feel 'cause it cannot
Friday, 10 September 2010
Through The Secrets
For your ever oblivion
Made everything you once believed
Through your secrets my way is going on
Cover the heart with your warmth
Reveal the sacramental magic of moment to me
Discover the beauty of devoted love
Remind with only word of innermost memory
Show me deep passion none ever saw
Could I believe?
Would you deceive?
Highest hopes fell so long ago
Sweet heart burns in hell only more
My soul I wrote it before
Cold breath of wind
For your ever oblivion
Made everything you once believed
Through your secrets my way is going on
Cherish a hope
Catch a right moment
Cut the rope
Follow the seducing scent
Would I return if you call?
Long time, my pride - it doesn't matter
Only you save me from the fall
To move away all tears, to make me feel better
Could I believe?
Would you deceive?
Still I know that I could trust you...
Highest hopes fell so long ago
Sweet heart burns in hell only more
My soul I wrote it before
Cold breath of wind
For your ever oblivion
Made everything you once believed
Through your secrets my way is going on
Dream me through your memory
Bring me to the magic scenery
Give me this holy sense of life, just let me see...
Could I believe?
Would you deceive?
Could I believe
That you wouldn't deceive?
Highest hopes fell so long ago
Sweet heart burns in hell only more
My soul I wrote it before
Cold breath of wind
For your ever oblivion
Made everything you once believed
Through your secrets my way is going on
Highest hopes fell so long ago
Sweet heart burns in hell only more
My soul I wrote it before
Cold breath of wind
For your ever oblivion
Made everything you once believed
Through your secrets my way is going on
Oblivion made you see
Pure soul of me
Awakening the feeling
The dream and memory
Cherishing from the cold wind
Just follow the melody
That I'm still singing
Highest hopes fell so long ago
Sweet heart burns in hell only more
My soul I wrote it before
Cold breath of wind
For your ever oblivion
Made everything you once believed
Through your secrets my way is going on
Highest hopes fell so long ago
Sweet heart burns in hell only more
My soul I wrote it before
Cold breath of wind
For your ever oblivion
Made everything you once believed
Through your secrets my way is going on
Through your secrets my way is going on
Through your secrets my way is going on
Through your secrets my way is going on
Wednesday, 8 September 2010
Like it was ....

Tuesday, 7 September 2010
Should angel die?
Monday, 6 September 2010
Autumn Leaves
Saturday, 4 September 2010
Goodnight kiss
My Last Ever Wish
Dreaming of the one
Who would make me write the song
About love never gone
Then heart couldn't go wrong
Tears of loneliness faded away
Leave the sword as it lay
Forget old sins and pray
See bright light of the day
(I would die for you if I may)
My soul longs for you
Forever I remember you
Since my birth through the whole life
I go whispering the dear name
Through deep pain and cruel strife
I was calling your sweet name
My heart longs for you
Forever I pray for you
Pain of shame follows me
Till one last ever breath
Dreamy touch made heart feel
Memory stays with me till death
You promised you'd never leave
Tears of loneliness faded away
Leave the sword as it lay
Forget old sins and pray
See bright light of the day
(I will die for you if I may)
Remember just one
Forever, even if I'm gone
This destiny was once written down
Tears of loneliness faded away
Leave the sword as it lay
Forget old sins and pray
See bright light of the day
(I will die for you if I may)
Tears of loneliness faded away
Leave the sword as it lay
Forget old sins and pray
See bright light of the day
(I will die for you if I may)
Silent touch to awake the feeling
Blind moonlight's weeping for dreaming
Starfall is calling for your deepest believing
My soul longs for yours
Poor heart still burns
You don't want to see
The pain of me
But still you make me suffer
Heart was once broken
Prayer unspoken
Superstition awoken
'cause I wished to heal deep wounds of your soul
You don't want me to cry
Always giving a try
But still you make me suffer only more
Walking through the darkest times
Beneath the pain, beneath all lies
You gave me wings to fly
To be alive and surf in sky
Drying tears falling from my eyes
You showed me the path to paradise
Call for a prayer
Shot for a cruel slayer
One last sight of this sinful world
Forgotten words of the bleeding soul
Turned into saddest ever song
Tears of loneliness faded away
Leave the sword as it lay
Forget old sins and pray
See bright light of the day
(I will die for you if I may)
One sigh for fevering entreaty
Hoping to go through Eternity
Love would stay in my memory
Keeping with care your sanity
Tears of loneliness faded away
Leave the sword as it lay
Forget old sins and pray
See bright light of the day
(I will die for you if I may)
Read in my eyes the last ever wish
I know you what will you see
Dreams of the secret night kiss
Tears in the eyes of thee
Your silent touch, my eternal bliss
Tears of loneliness faded away
Leave the sword as it lay
Forget old sins and pray
See bright light of the day
(I will die for you if I may)
Life turned into one flight
It's gone with one fight
Giving a sight and hiding the light
Play this melody
Purity of tune
It lives in me
It lives in you
Close eyes and see
The words were true