It's Halloween... :)

Hi everyone!

Today I'm going to celebrate Halloween and I'm sure that it will be amazing. :)
There was a little problem - to choose the costume. But still yesterday evening I've made a decision and today evening you'll see it ;)

Hope that all of you will also have a great celebration!

And Happy Halloween to you! :*

Autumn influence...

It was such a nice weather last two days.. Sun is shining, the sky is clear, a bit cool although.
And nothing left just to enjoy such moments when nature gives us last warm sun rays. :)

And when I was going after university yesterday listening to some music all this - weather combined with music made a great symphony and some verses came to my mind.

Sad look of the eyes
Or deep sea of blue
From the depth was born a sunrise
Of eternity so pure

Slight whisper of voice
Is like cool autumn wind
Little girl silently walks
In my mind deep within

Is that a cold in her eyes
Or just broken soul?
She wished never cry
Being hurt by the world

Bright hair like fallen leaves
Just flame of burning letters
Naive heart of hers believes
That things are much better

Her smile like an angel's wing
Giving warmth to those who still care
One sigh is like cryig "Try to believe"
Brave heart once made me dare

She was like a grey sky
Full of tears
Like one silent fly
Through the years

Autumn gave a birth
To little soul
Whose heart has just hurt
Being alone

Is that a cold in her eyes
Or just broken soul?
She wished never cry
Being hurt by the world

Is that a cold in her eyes
Or just broken soul?
She wished never cry
Being hurt by the world

Cold wind whispered her name
Knocking it at the window
With raindrops, through calling of flame
Let her once know
That was not a shame
It was just a light of hope....

Who and why?

Why have you done this?
Knowing all you still hurt me
With silence, poisoned kiss
Is there some mercy in thee?

I gave you a soul, my everything
But all I got is just pain
Do you have any feelings within?

Writing down all deepest dreams
Every night again
I knew that were just cold sins

Why have you done this?
Feeling I'm always here for you
Still you kill virgin's dreams
I just can't get who I am for you

A shadow of night
Cruel moonlight
Sweet poison of lie
Or another angel to die?
A tear in eye
Last fear, final sigh
Untouched dream to fly
Just tell who am I?

Why do you need me?
I'm still asking myself
Stay or just leave
To hold you and save
From all fears unseen

Just tell me if I have to leave
And you'll never see me
Never feel that I feel
Just tell me if you want to see

Please, tell me
If I have to leave
Just tell me....

New Friend

Hi everyone!

Yesterday I got a new little friend.

He is very cute, isn't he? ;)
He is living with my granny actually, but I come to her very often and play with him :)

Where the world begins

Tell me where the world begins
Show me why we're living
Dream me beneath all sins
Draw that we believe in
Make true all my secret dreams

Why do we need breathing?
My eternal deep dreaming
Hoping, praying, seeking....
One more night without a sleep

Hoping for fading away
Long time flowing with my weep
Waiting for a new day
That makes the feel so deep

Why are we dreaming?
From one only screaming
I'll be gone with all your believing

Open your eyes just to see
The purity of innocence
Touch the magic of love lying in me
Sink in the beauty of deep sense
Forever in you it will live

Sins would be gone
Fears of all alone
Don't make hope forlorn

Dreams they are still alive
Making me forever die
For your last sigh

Sins would be gone
Fears of all alone
Don't make hope forlorn

Dreams they are still alive
Making me forever die
For your last sigh

Child's Heart

Fading away, dwelling in shade
I called for dreams once so real
Writing the tale of time that made
My heart beat with cold pain within
Through your memory I will fade

Whisper is silence so cold but so pure
Like white snow
Sweet dream or memories that I would endure
Sank in a river of eternal flow

Everything living in me worths nothing
Try to change my mind
Don't prove but just show what it means to thee
The face of evil and kind
Not everyone could feel and see the dream

Drawing in the night
I try to keep on my fight
To save all nightmares and sins

Dreaming might once
Wither with pure glance
But it became true, still living in you

Facing my ever fears
I know that was so long ago
But one's heart still cares
Of my dream long gone
When your soul finally dares
To believe me a bit more

To search and to find
For one dear sight
Could I ask more?

To see being blind
Is more than eternal flight
Could you heal my soul?

For the heart of a child
I will forever pray
Caring about all this pure light
I won't let it vanish away

Hoping for dear hand
Holding me till the end
Look in my eyes...

Writing deep dream in the ninth verse
That's only few words
Making me believe that it would be real....

Unlocked

Hours are passing by
Silent tick-tock, tick-tock
I feel their their fast flight
Trying to find that is still locked

Wishing to dream only once more
Sleep without awakening
Have you seen my letter under your door?
Feeling is my ever slavery
Dying and raising from the dust forevermore
While heart's still daring
To dream and pray for immortal soul

Seconds are running so fast
Slaying everything on their way
Turning deep thoughts into dead dust
Should I now go away?
Silent tick-tock
See that is now locked

Wishing to dream only once more
Sleep without awakening
Have you seen my letter under your door?
Feeling is my ever slavery
Dying and raising from the dust forevermore
While heart's still daring
To dream and pray for immortal soul

I cannot write of stars
Just not anymore
There was never a meaning of "us"
Not now, nor before
Could it hurt more than it does?
Whisper is gone with a tick-tock
And heart left broken, unlocked

Wishing to dream only once more
Sleep without awakening
Have you seen my letter under your door?
Feeling is my ever slavery
Dying and raising from the dust forevermore
While heart's still daring
To dream and pray for immortal soul

Why had I done that?
I was in love and still am
But you don't understand
The main from that only poem
Child's heart's tale without an end

Wishing to dream only once more
Have you seen my letter under your door?
Dying and raising from the dust forevermore
Dream and pray for immortal soul
Nothing could stop that ever tick-tock
Just a knife stabbing the heart that was locked

Wishing to dream only once more
Sleep without awakening
Have you seen my letter under your door?
Feeling is my ever slavery
Dying and raising from the dust forevermore
While heart's still daring
To dream and pray for immortal soul

Wishing to dream only once more
Sleep without awakening
Have you seen my letter under your door?
Feeling is my ever slavery
Dying and raising from the dust forevermore
While heart's still daring
To dream and pray for immortal soul

New watch :)

Today in the morning I had no lectures so I decided to take a little walk ;)
There was a little money since my b-day so I wanted to buy something for me. I didn't want what exactly I want to buy while I was walking around the supermarket and suddenly I saw a very nice watch in the shop-window.
I loved it so much and bought it :)

Happy Birthday, mom!! :)

Today (10th October) is my mother's birthday!
So Happy Birthday to you, dear mother!

Happy birthday to you
I wish all your wishes come true
This is your day
So let all the bad pass away

Happy birthday! :)

Just away

Take me away from all this pain
Just dream me away

Deep silence it takes me for my words
Written by young hand
Making everyone feel that really hurts
Showing this dreamland
Every tear makes me feel only worse

Moments are like a poison
For pure loving soul
Eternal dream and that's all?
When heartache is gone
Giving you one last silent call

Silence is around me
And pain living inside thee
Drawing this ever dream
That let us see...

Just dream me away
Take me away from this pain
That poisons blood in my veins
Cover me from these cold rains
Please take me away

Silence is around me
And pain living inside thee
Drawing this ever dream
That makes us see
What truth used to be

Just hear this song
Of a virgin soul
Holding near, in deep memory
And save purity of young beauty

Just dream me away
Take me away from this pain
That poisons blood in my veins
Cover me from these cold rains
Please take me away
Dream me away....

B-day :)

Today is my birthday and so many people have already greeted me!
That's really a pleasure for me that so many friends remember about me ^^

I've got sweets & chocolates but the most wonderful present is keyboard!

The trail

Could it be so

That they are blind all?

Could it happen so 

That this was a wrong call?

Just kill them all...

Whisper is sharp as a knife

Broken silence, my lost defense

Taking this innocent life

Shame and fear will slowly evanesce

And finally I could dive

For that dream hidden in a secret place

They cannot see it all

They don't hear that call

And it's their downfall

This world isn't cruel so

Like someone could think

Every tear is gone with one blink

I whisper to you "Just fuck up them all!"

Words became pale

What now?

Old pain is so frail

Falling down

Reveal to my eye this trail

Of those who howl

Could they see

Being full of greed?

Just let it be

That's not that we need

Forget old pains of soul

Take dreams of my own

Forgive those who abuse

Anyway they'll all loose

This world isn't cruel so

Like someone could think

Every tear is gone with one blink

I whisper to you "Just fuck up them all!"

Forever

I believe in every hope of yours
Trying to understand
Writing for so long all these words
Dreaming to hold your hand

Forever I've told my dreams
Drawing them at the dawn
Forever they dwelt into the sins
Making me feel alone
Forever killing heart that still lives

Silent wind, cold tears of sky
I know that you see
Where is the truth and also the lie
You feel this pain in me

Forever I've told my dreams
Drawing them at the dawn
Forever they dwelt into the sins
Making me feel alone
Forever killing heart that still lives

Telling all this in the story
Just a tale, short poem
I pray for your memory
Hoping you're calling my name

Forever I've told my dreams
Drawing them at the dawn
Forever they dwelt into the sins
Making me feel alone
Forever killing heart that still lives

This day became sad
And tears are sparkling in my eyes
But we cannot revive those who are dead
That's why my heart cries

Forever I've told my dreams
Drawing them at the dawn
Forever they dwelt into the sins
Making me feel alone
Forever killing heart that still lives

Forever I hope to see you
You know that I do
Still feeling the warmth in my soul
When you're here I'm not alone

Forever I've told my dreams
Drawing them at the dawn
Forever they dwelt into the sins
Making me feel alone
Forever killing heart that still lives

One year

One year
this time has passed
One year
when I've met you at first

You could never get
What is good or awfully bad
That heart will never regret
But still I feel that
Words of my verses became so sad

One year
I need to get what is real
One year
for a birth of true feel

So short or so long
Dear soul was alone
Forsaken, forlorn
Believing in song
That hope can't be wrong

One year
to fall in love
One year
to pray for hope

One only year...

One year
to take and endure
One year
to be so totally sure

Singing for heart
Turning back to the start
Follow the light of my eyes
Don't care about world's lies

One year
to loose and to find
One year
to see again being blind

One year
to search for the truth
One year
I've been feeling for you

Dance show

Hello!

This time I would like to write about my favourite dance show "Танцюють всі" ("Everyone dances"). It's Ukrainian version of «So You Think You Can Dance?».
I love it because there are always many emotions in this show, not only dancing. Of course, the dance is the main part of it...

It always makes me cry, especially when a girl or a guy dances fantastic.
I've learned dancing once but then I got to know that I couldn't do that because of some reasons...
That made me really sad and even now when I watch this show my heart hurts because of I can't dance professionally. I wish I could..
For me dancing was always something light and pure, something so beautiful.

Still I hope that one day I'll turn back to this.
Sometimes when none sees me I turn on the music and dance. That makes me feel better and draw my attention from different problems while I'm dancing.



Here is the official site of this show if you are interested:


http://dance.stb.ua/

The Game

Lie by lie
It took my time
Drop by drop
You can't even stop

It was your own game
Dark cruel play
Rules left the same
Something made me stay
No hatred to blame
Fears are so far away
With my own name

It's not raining
Healing that pain in
Seconds' breaking fast
Turning time into burnt dust

It's just cruel game
Giving us the only chance
To be tamed and to tame
Last tear took my dance
Making silence and flame
Fill my soul, your glance
Drawing into a dream again

Bloodred path
Through the pure heart
Taking me
To my only dream

It's only a game
But why I don't feel the lie?
Nothing is the same
None made my hopes die
Killing that dark fame
With the only angel's cry
Dwelling in shame

Touching my skin
You feel that's only a dream
So close, so real
And so deep within

It's not the game
Making me feel so hard
Dark nightmares came
Once again to my heart
For my tears to blame
Just make them leave apart
Whispering my name

No words to describe the emotion
No way to escape from deep passion
Dream is slowly sinking in the ocean
Of my own giving me this soul tension

Should I give up?
forgetting  that all
Would I kill the heart
that keeps me from
Silent crying about hopes apart?

I don't want to loose all of hope
That I cannot change, cannot recall

One question - why
The same answer ...
Sleepless night full of cry
Heart beats faster

Should I give up?
forgetting that all
Would you kill the heart
that keeps me from
Lonely death beneath love so hard?

Tell me only one thing
Is there still a place for hope?
Take me to your dreaming
Show me pure 'n' true love

 I don't want to slay the dreams
That others called deadlist sins

Should I give up
wishing to live,
being deeply in love?
My silent breath
Is your secret call...

Should I give up
feeling for,
loving more?

Should I give up
calling for dreams
Would time once stop
if I receive your kiss?
Through the night
I'm writing deep wishes