Surprise by surprise.. ;)

Hi everyone!
So finally holidays came and I can breathe easier. To do what I want and like to do, sleep till 2 pm etc. ;)

This winter greeted us with pretty warm weather and no snow (yet), but I hope that next days it will be much colder and snowy.

Well, I haven't written here for a pretty long time 'cause I had really a lot things to do. And as now I have some free time I'm here. :)
What about surprises.. Hmm, I think that the main surprise will be revealed a bit later but I'll tell only one thing it has a deal with my lyrics. ;)
And soon you'll get to know what I'm talking about..


Some lines from it:
"Through the night of dreams we went 
For lost hope, forgotten faith we´ve prayed.."                  

I hope that you like this 'surprise'. And I promise that you'll get to know about it in the nearest future!

So see you later and take care!!

Kisses!

Yours Trina.

                

Eyes Making Me Mad

You know you're making me go wild
Sing flying through the blue sky
Dance in the darkness of night


You, one-night dream
You, sweet desire within
I, vampire running for blood
I, heart needing to be loved


You know I'm going wild
When you look at me like that
You know I'm full of desire
And this kiss drives me mad


I know those dear eyes
That make me go mad
I know one of all the nights
The only I can't forget


They said it was fake
Cold illusion, but I'm on fire
One only hand to take
One road to join desire


You know I'm going wild
When you look at me like that
You know I'm full of desire
And this kiss drives me mad


I know those dear eyes
That make me go mad
I know one of all the nights
The only I can't forget


You, angel of Heaven
I, devil from Hell
You, tear of Eden
I, toll of bell


I live to take, you live to give
I want to hope, you try to do
The dream is me, and you're my belief
The only I'm running for is you


You know I'm going wild
When you look at me like that
You know I'm full of desire
And this kiss drives me mad


I know those dear eyes
That make me go mad
I know one of all the nights
The only I can't forget


You know I'm going wild
When you look at me like that
You know I'm full of desire
And this kiss drives me mad


I know those dear eyes
That make me go mad
I know one of all the nights
The only I can't forget


I know those dear eyes
That make me go mad
I know one of all the nights
The only I can't forget


I know those dear eyes
That make me go mad
I know one of all the nights
The only I can't forget

Elven Night

• Old tale of elves and magicians
• Painting bright child's imagination
• Dream or real truth
• Story happened so long ago

• Sounds of guitar strings
• Silent melody broke through the glass
• Of cold empty silence
• Lonely elf playing old motives

• He played and suddenly
• He raised his eyes up to me
• Not saying a word, just kind smile
• I looked in his eyes and saw their shine
• Deepest blue sparkling with a dream of mine
• Streams of memory brought me to that winter time
• First night, lonely light dwelling in the dark
• Still caring, still warming my heart

• Little girl turned to pale butterfly
• Whole life seems like one night
• But what she could do
• Longing for that clear blue

• Dancing in pure moonlight under the stars
• She lost her silent cry
• Falling asleep on the dew of fresh grass
• She saw those blue eyes

• Stiill playing his tune
• He gave me one look
• Just only one warm glance
• So calm like a snowflake's dance
• With a sound of flute
• Night draws secret truth
• Silent winter days gave my heart hope
• Peaceful nights drew for me dear love

• Lonely elf playing his song
• Making my sorrow long gone
• Painting silently my soul with joy

• Endless sunset in the neverland
• Little girl knew it still is somewhere
• Now I know where lies it all
• The forest, the dawn
• And elf with pure eyes and kind smile

• He played and suddenly
• He raised his eyes up to me
• Not saying a word, just kind smile
• I looked in his eyes and saw their shine
• Deepest blue sparkling with a dream of mine
• Streams of memory brought me to that winter time
• First night, lonely light dwelling in the dark
• Still caring, still warming my heart

• He played and suddenly
• He raised his eyes up to me
• Not saying a word, just kind smile
• I looked in his eyes and saw their shine
• Deepest blue sparkling with a dream of mine
• Streams of memory brought me to that winter time
• First night, lonely light dwelling in the dark
• Still caring, still warming my heart

• He played and suddenly
• He raised his eyes up to me
• Not saying a word, just kind smile

Through This Hell

For another dream
I'll fall and rise again
It's so hard to feel
This love is like endless pain
Like burning Hell
Toll of death bell
But so beautiful suffering
This feeling for him

Lovelines for the one
Who doesn't see it
Hope for that he will
Oh, he will once read it

Through the changing seasons
Escaping all hurting reasons
I'm crying about only one thing -
You will not believe

For another dawn
I'll die and be reborn
From the dust I'll rise
Through this Hell to paradise
The only dearest dream
Forever living in me
In deep eyes of him
My life lies in this blue sea

Pure love through the northern lights
One winter eve, dreamless night
How it could ever be across the fears
My old love for all these years

Nevergone, neverfading
Loving heart still trembling
In desire and fear
Blue eyes dropped a tear

"It just couldn't be real, but I feel.
This love took me through one snowy dream.
Forever since then my heart feels for thee."

I want this dream real

I want this dream real

Years ago
I made a beautiful joke
And then
Laughed at me my dear fate

So I cannot do anything now
Oh how it could be so, how?

Where is my heart, where I left it now?
Why is this dream, just how?
How could it be so dear to me
My love neverseen
I want this dream real!
Nothing else, just to feel
Never but so real

Through that story
Behind the pale memory
For my old lost love
I'll fall down and will fly above

Where is my heart, where I left it now?
Why is this dream, just how?
How could it be so dear to me
My love neverseen
I want this dream real!
Nothing else, just to feel
Never but so real

Where is my heart, where I left it now?
Why is this dream, just how?
How could it be so dear to me
My love neverseen
I want this dream real!
Nothing else, just to feel
Never but so real

Needed

I've tried to pass it all through

Alone, just by my own

Now I know I was but a fool

Falling down, down

Through the mist of all fears

Through the ocean of tears

Searching for Deep Blue

Hiding my only truth

All I needed was just you

All thoughts I have written

And the ones still hidden

Everything I kept within

For long years of kneeling

Child's heart

Not for everyone's mind

So simple, but so complicated

Not all will once get

Through the mist of all fears

Through the ocean of tears

Searching for Deep Blue

Hiding my only truth

All I needed was just you

Day by day

I'm fading away

Diving into black memory, so pure

Dying forever for an old dream of you

Through the mist of all fears

Through the ocean of tears

Searching for Deep Blue

Hiding my only truth

All I needed was just you

All I needed was just you

To catch kind sight of you

Just to find you

Never haunted golden treasure

Just longing for pleasure

One old tune was only passion

The eyes of a wolf is my temptation

I'm falling down only more

For heart's only love

Through the mist of all fears

Through the ocean of tears

Searching for Deep Blue

Hiding my only truth

All I needed was just you

All I needed was just you

All I needed was you

Just you

Miracle

My heart just wants to sing
As I want to dream
Through the long gone years
When I had no fears


I know it's unreal
I know it's impossible
But why then I feel
This wish to join this dream
And fly


Fly far across the sky
Deep into the sea
To be just memory
Cry through the darkest time
Drawn into the dream
Just to know it's real


Cold wind will blow
White snow will fall
It'll be again, I know



I know it's unreal
I know it's impossible
But why then I feel
This wish to join this dream


The dream
Of winter magic
Bright feel
Of tale so tragic
The pain but sweet
So sharp and deep
But so beautiful
Pure miracle



Fly far across the sky
Deep into the sea
To be just memory
Cry through the darkest time
Drawn into the dream
Just to know it's real



Fly far across the sky
Deep into the sea
To be just memory
Cry through the darkest time
Drawn into the dream
Just to know it's real

Will Never Leave

I wrote it a couple of days ago.. One my dear friend liked it so much so I've decided to post it here. 

Sweetie, I hope you will see this. ;) 

• Within these cold days
• Deep in dark shadows of ways
• Lost in white bound of snow
• I lie frozen alone

• I will never hurt, will never leave
• The only who made me once feel

• In Eden and in Hell
• My heart will always dwell
• With the name of the one
• Whom I dream about with love

• Forgive me for another line
• And the touch of tears this time
• And the heart for this sad song it sings
• With last verse of it I will dream

• I will never hurt, will never leave
• The only who made me once feel

• I will never leave, will never let you down
• In sorrow and grief I won't let you drawn
• In the coldest silence I'll give a whisper sound
• Never letting you be alone being forever around

Forever Yours

There were times 

When I felt like never before 

There were lines 

That left never gone 

There were eyes  

Watching my dream while I was sleeping 

Still never again 

I'll reach love and pain 

Within only one 

Never again 

I'll feel this 

I will find this shore 

That I was made for 

Trying to reach it before 

Just to feel forever yours 

I will do something more 

That I've done never before 

Just you could know 

I'm forever yours 

There were times  

When I was wrong 

Days when heart cries 

But you forgave 

There were times  

You were wrong 

When heart dies 

But I forgot 

Silently I'll reach the bed 

Where you're sleeping 

To watch you're dreaming 

Nothing more, nothing bad 

I will find this shore 

That I was made for 

Trying to reach it before 

Just to feel forever yours 

I will do something more 

That I've done never before 

Just you could know 

I'm forever yours 

I pray for angels  

To watch you, dear 

I'll pray forever 

They'll hold you, dear 

I will find this shore 

That I was made for 

Trying to reach it before 

Just to feel forever yours 

I will do something more 

That I've done never before 

Just you could know 

I'm forever yours 

I will find this shore 

That I was made for 

Trying to reach it before 

Just to feel forever yours 

I will do something more 

That I've done never before 

Just you could know 

I'm forever yours

Don't Hurt Me

Why everytime when I fall in

This dark abyss of love

I shoud see the back of it

Leaving behind, forever apart

Why everytime I fall in love so wrong

So wrong, with not the one

Maybe it's something wrong with me

And not with you...

Don't hurt me

For the tears so bitter

Don't hurt me

For last line in my letter 

For every single word

For last verse to be burnt

Don't hurt me

For my love

Don't hurt me

Dark shade of a ship long gone

Burnt sails of my soul

Why I feel so wrong?

Just tell me why...

Don't hurt me

For the last my word

Don't hurt me

For the line still untold

Pure songs that gave me wings

Sad lines forever so dear for me

Thank you my dear for this

Don't hurt me

For the tears so bitter

Don't hurt me

For last line in my letter 

For every single word

For last verse to be burnt

Don't hurt me

For my love

Don't hurt me

Don't hurt me

For the tears so bitter

Don't hurt me

For last line in my letter 

For every single word

For last verse to be burnt

Don't hurt me

For my love

Don't hurt me

Oh Friday.. :)

Hei! :) Happy Friday everyone!
Finally hard week is over and all tests are done and now it's time to relax for a while! ;)

Even it's a great Friday evening full of relaxing and nice music autumn melancholia is still here... Maybe it's because of the pale weather, or maybe it's something deeper.. who knows.

But hey, it's weekend and no time to be sad! ;)

Have a great Friday evening and the best weekend! :)

See you soon!

- T

Day at home ;)

Hello! :)

Today I was at home watching some series and cleaning the place. This week we have exams in the university and today was one day off and it was just great! :D
But tomorrow we have to go back 'cause we have one more exam to pass and it's math, so I hope it will be okay. ;)

Now I'm going to bed and I wish you a very good night and sweet dreams! ;)

- T

Till The End

Lights went down and left only darkness 
For me there 
Through the pages I drew all the fears 
Breathing cold air 
I see your shadow in my dream, again 
And this pain tears my heart again 

The eyes of Heaven's blue 
Like clear waters of lagoon 
Pure like cold ice 
Angel's eyes 
My hell and paradise 

I've promised to another to be "forever yours"
Wishing to rip out my heart
Just to never feel again this agony that hurts
To run away and leave it all apart
But I can't
My hands are tied
And this pain tears my heart again

The eyes of Heaven's blue
Like clear waters of lagoon
Pure like cold ice
Angel's eyes
My hell and paradise

I will remember this dream till the end
Till the last sunset in my life
And when I'm dying I'll whisper your name
And last tear will fall for this light
Sparkling forever in that paradise
Forever living in your eyes

The eyes of Heaven's blue
Like clear waters of lagoon
Pure like cold ice
Angel's eyes
My hell and paradise

Passing away I'll scream your name
Forever dwelling in me
My comfort and my deepest pain
Only dear part of me

The eyes of Heaven's blue
Like clear waters of lagoon
Pure like cold ice
Angel's eyes
My hell and paradise

The eyes of Heaven's blue
Like clear waters of lagoon
Pure like cold ice
Angel's eyes
My hell and paradise

I'll Watch You Behind

Only in such moments of fear

I could now see

What dwells in mess and what is so dear

That melody

Sounds forever in me

Being waiting for so long

I heard only one pure song

Still dwelling in me

Like drop of cristal sea

Like clear tear on dawn

So cold and forlorn

So soon, I know

I could never go

No step away

No move aside

Till the end of my way

I'll watch you behind

Lost lines of a poet unknown

Don't blame me for this

But dream nevergone

Will be my ever bliss

Long years of longing

Cold nights of dreams so cruel

They stil tear my heart

But I will never be apart

'cause I know the meaning of loneliness

Broken emptiness



So soon, I know

I could never go

No step away

No move aside

Till the end of my way

I'll watch you behind

Happy Birthday dear Kathy!!! =**

Sorry that so late but still Happy Birthday to you my dear!!
I wish you all the best in your life and thank you for just being who you are!
I'm happy to have such a nice, sweet, attentive and so on and on friend! ♥

And like one man once said - just leave who you are, don't change!

Love, hug and kiss
Trina

Just Me

Angel with deep eyes
Blue sparkles of wise
With a touch from paradise
It's not me
Definitely not me
'cause...

Cold and cruel
Full of lost lure
Blackhearted devil with sad eyes
Fallen dark angel tied with chains of lies
Empty soul, sold heart of a child
Turned to an insane mind
That's a real me
Just me

Broken marionette, who cares?
Dead or alive she still dares
To .. love
And it's enough
For me
Believe

Wide open eyes so naive I was
True answer for every why is because
Nothing left to forget, no silent relief
Still I remember every lie, believe
I would never forgive

Cold and cruel
Full of lost lure
Blackhearted devil with sad eyes
Fallen dark angel tied with chains of lies
Empty soul, sold heart of a child
Turned to an insane mind
That's a real me
Just me

Lost broken beauty
One fake spark of memory
Just a madman's dream...
Don't walk away
Lead me astray
Empty words of pain
That's a real me
Just me


Cold and cruel
Full of lost lure
Blackhearted devil with sad eyes
Fallen dark angel tied with chains of lies
Empty soul, sold heart of a child
Turned to an insane mind
That's a real me
Just me

Broken marionette, who cares?
Dead or alive she still dares
To .. love
And it's enough
For me
Believe

My Poison

I need no answer, no explanation
Of tears in my eyes
Pain is the name of my passion
Gates to my paradise
Living deep in blood
In everything I once loved

Don't say a word
Don't break the silence
It hurts and will hurt
But the suffering is so good....

You - a name of my pain every night
The shadow in every glow of light
My sweet poison killing wounded heart
So dear suffering of me
My bittersweet suffocation
So beautiful pain of me
My ever killing passion

One moment of death for eternal life
One second of pain for a night of love
One moment of bliss to get the eternity

Break my chains of dreambound
Cold lips are whispering
Never making even a sound
Don't break my believing

Don't say anything
Don't break the ice of silence
Let it hurt me deep
Still it hurts so good..

You - a name of my pain every night
The shadow in every glow of light
My sweet poison killing wounded heart
So dear suffering of me
My bittersweet suffocation
So beautiful pain of me
My ever killing passion

You - a name of my pain every night
The shadow in every glow of light
My sweet poison killing wounded heart
So dear suffering of me
My bittersweet suffocation
So beautiful pain of me
My ever killing passion

So dear suffering of me
My bittersweet suffocation
So beautiful pain of me
My ever killing passion

Before The Winter



Just dust remains

Beneath bare feet 

Keeping dear pains

All alive deep in me

 

Before the dawn of winter let me cry

With autumn rain

Let me feel it again

Before the white snow falls let me fly

With golden leaves

With tune of strings

Let me feel it once more

Before the winter comes

 

Wind blows now so cold

I'm not strong enough

To fight against the whole world

The only I wished was love

 

Before the dawn of winter let me cry

With autumn rain

Let me feel it again

Before the white snow falls let me fly

With golden leaves

With tune of strings

Let me feel it once more

Before the winter comes

 

Lost dignity 

For another beauty

Lust, violence, my blood

Burnt memory

Left broken in my past

 

Ripped pages of my diary

Lost lines of my teary story

Forgive me these tears behind the smile

Forgive me all fears so alive in my heart

 

Before the dawn of winter let me cry

With autumn rain

Let me feel it again

Before the white snow falls let me fly

With golden leaves

With tune of strings

Let me feel it once more

Before the winter comes

 

Before the winter comes... 

 

I try to find the reason why

But darkness is calling my name

Cold snow whispering to soul of mine

Flame is burning now, flame of my own shame

 

Before the dawn of winter let me cry

With autumn rain

Let me feel it again

Before the white snow falls let me fly

With golden leaves

With tune of strings

Let me feel it once more

Before the winter comes

 

Before the dawn of winter let me cry

With autumn rain

Let me feel it again

Before the white snow falls let me fly

With golden leaves

With tune of strings

Let me feel it once more

Before the winter comes

Inquisition

Forgive me for my life

Forgive me all untold lie

Let me see when I was wrong

Forgive me all love to what I belong

(Forgive me all years I was born)

No place, no silence

No heart, no soul

Eternal hell of one dear glance

Just let me know...

.. Why nothing has left

To forget

Why no heart to understand

To regret

Burning in flame

Of my own shame

Life is but a cruel game

No path to guide me away

No dear hand to hide

Life played me a fool again

Lost dream turned to lie

Nothing but a farewell

I send to the world

Now this inquisitor's flame

Silent prayer untold

End of story, welcome Hell

I'm not afarid

Of the words I once said

"Flame took her to her pale paradise. Once again, away from all pains. Silent days of fear and nightmares are gone. Cruel game is done. The end."

Purity and innocence

Will be reborn once again

Lost days of cold nightmares

Pale nights of pain

Dawn of new sun

Will be once done.

Weekend in Kiev

Hei kaikille!

Last Friday evening my friends and me went to Kiev again. We went to the station and after a long night of talking, watching Lieksa! on my cellphone and a short sleep we came to Kiev.
It was 6 am when we came to the station where my brother met us. Beautiful and cold Saturday morning! We've decided to meet at 10 am after unpacking things and breakfast.

 Walking around Kiev was great as always. :)
This time I was with both my best friends and it was so cool!


Shopping, walking, having a dinner in the McDonalds etc.
Saturday made everyone so tired but so happy. ;)

Next day was even better!

Sunday evening we went to the Apocalyptica concert!

It was the best evening ever! I've never felt so happy before! Really.. I've never felt such before. 

I cannot describe it with words 'cause it was just awesome! 

Here are some photos. ;) 

That was really great! Brilliant concert! Hope to meet them really soon again! 

Felt like in a dream after it. He heh. ;) 

On Monday we went back home. Long way on train from Kiev to Zaporizhzhya made us really tired again, but with such great memories. :) 

We were home near midnight. Tired but so happy I went to shower and then to bed 'cause next day I should  go to university. 

The only  thing that I can say that it's the best b-day present I could imagine for my 18th birthday that is really realy soon. ;) 

Hope tomorrow will be a beautiful day. ^^ 

See you soon! 

Hugs!!! 

-T.