Dead Romance

Last moment of my life

So soon will leave behind

Together you and me

Silent eternity

Sweet poison took my heart

But why you are apart?

I'm dying on the cold earth and

You are walking away...

All days of love are gone

Black lie just took my soul

My nightmares have come true

Forever I will belong to you

Eyes so bright were the last

I saw in my life

So kind once

But so cruel smile...

My tale of Heaven was burnt

No heart now left to hurt

White dress you'll wear one day

But not for me, sad true

Dancing on forlorn cold grave

I lived only for you

For blue ice I gave my life

To fly so long apart

My paradise was lost 

One heart - so fair cost

Your eyes took my whole world 

And made my sun so cold

For you I lived my life

Why then you were so blind?

All was just a dream of me

Never it could turn to reality

I took your hand with lost sunrise

My soul finally dies

For you, lost beauty of lust

Pure bride from my dying past

My life longed for you

My heart, my soul belonged to you

Only for you

Now I'm in my own Hell

Forever my soul will dwell

In this kingdom of lust 

Slowly turning me to dust

I wished to be with you

My love, my life, my heart

Your lies for me were true

Till the end of my dead time

Lost princess was never mine

My hangman and my angel

Lost bride forever gone

Burnt reality went wrong

Innocent purity lost in cold

For you I lived my life

Why then you were so blind?

All was just a dream of me

Never it could turn to reality

I took your hand with lost sunrise

My soul finally dies

For you, lost beauty of lust

Pure bride from my dying past

My life longed for you

My heart, my soul belonged to you

Only for you

Now I'm in my own Hell

Forever my soul will dwell

In this kingdom of lust 

Slowly turning me to dust

For you I lived my life

Why then you were so blind?

All was just a dream of me

Never it could turn to reality

I took your hand with lost sunrise

My soul finally dies

For you, lost beauty of lust

Pure bride from my dying past

My life longed for you

My heart, my soul belonged to you

Only for you

Now I'm in my own Hell

Forever my soul will dwell

In this kingdom of lust 

Slowly turning me to dust

Eyes so bright were the last

I saw in my life

So kind once

But so cruel smile...

Eyes so bright were the last

I saw in my life

So kind once

But a beloved's smile

The Page of Diary

• Day by day
• Snow became colder
• Left none to hold me
• Going this way
• I know
• I have nothing to lose

• Sad, melancholia reached my soul
• So young, so far from the deepest wisdom
• Living in the forgotten land, unreal world
• My own kingdom
• Land of dreams, ever done wishes
• The kingdom of my own

• Sad, depressed and alone
• I thought the hope is gone
• Forever in my mind
• It's still undone

• The play was only one day 
• One single moment to see
• The only word, the only phrase
• Cruel game to live
• This page of diary
• Was simply my life
• Written once
• Rewriting then
• Or never
• The play called life
• Verse of mine

• Lying on the hot sand
• I feel so cold
• How to understand
• This frozen dead world
• The world of pain
• Of hopes in vain
• Life forever alone
• Yes or no?

• Dark evil hand is holding me
• Don't let me go
• Revive, heal, just save me
• Don't let me fall
• I don't know you, my dark knight
• But I see your pure light

• The play was only one day 
• One single moment to see
• The only word, the only phrase
• Cruel game to live
• This page of diary
• Was simply my life
• Written once
• Rewriting then
• Or never
• The play called life
• Verse of mine

• Never, forever, endless story
• Rotten pages of my diary
• Blood, everything is red around
• Nothing makes a sound
• My nightmares are gone

• Silent piano plays the lullaby 
• for my wounded heart
• Save this melody for me
• what is playing within
• It flows in me, my soul

• The play was only one day 
• One single moment to see
• The only word, the only phrase
• Cruel game to live
• This page of diary
• Was simply my life
• Written once
• Rewriting then
• Or never
• The play called life
• Verse of mine

• The verse of mine
• was dark but true
• All pain in one line
• so dear, so pure
• Just, I beg you again
• Don't turn it into a crime

• "I'm helpless in this... Nothing I can do.. Still the dream is lying before my eyes. Cold snow, my paradise. Eternal bliss. Those lines, all the verses never were a lie. Still I'm asking why..."

The most important

It happens so when you want to tell something very important to a special person, but.. you cannot.
Because you're too shy to write this...
Because you cannot say a word.. you feel so weird.

I cannot describe this feeling, but it's not bad. No, not bad at all. It's .. different.

Maybe I would never tell this 'cause I'm too weak and too shy. Or I'd tell this, but ... I never know what could happen then...
And this feeling of unknown frightens me.



So simple words about a pure feel
They make me breathe, they make me thrill
So dear whisper so far from sin
My love will die or will it live
Just tell me once - could I believe?

Would I see the sunshine
Through the open window
Would I walk the blue sky
With the cold wind blow
Would I dream again
Without a nightmare pain
Would I feel once more
Sweet poison of red dawn

So simple verse to write again
It makes me live within this pain
So close or so far
I'll follow my northern star

Within my heart
Within my soul
I fell apart
But still I go


Would I see the sunshine
Through the open window
Would I walk the blue sky
With the cold wind blow
Would I dream again
Without a nightmare pain
Would I feel once more
Sweet poison of red dawn

Write my next line
Create my tomorrow
Another tale of time
Without tears of sorrow

My song was dumb
But dwells in night
Without warmth of sun
Sparkling in the air so bright


Would I see the sunshine
Through the open window
Would I walk the blue sky
With the cold wind blow
Would I dream again
Without a nightmare pain
Would I feel once more
Sweet poison of red dawn

Letters

Hello! :)

Rainy day it is today. It's about +17 degrees outside, brr, pretty cold! I've got wet when I went home from the post office.
I guess that everyone of us had sent handwritten letters to someone once. I think that it's much better than internet messages 'cause they still have this unusual spirit of old times. Of course, messages are more comfortable - you receive them much faster than letters. But then you can't see another person's handwriting.
And this makes letters much more personal than just 'chatting'. All this envelopes, stamps, different inks and another stuff make 'lettering' much more interesting and exciting. And of course waiting for an answer.

So I hope to get the answer really soon! He heh! :)
Now it's time to have a dinner and a cup of warm tea.

Have a nice day and a great evening then! ;)

See you soon!

- T

Some poetry again...

Across the sea, above the dream

I fly again with my secret sin

From dawn to sunset

Holding tears within

To run, to forget

I escape from my fear... 

No way to run

No cave to hide

No ray of sun

One moment alive

I've heard once "Tomorrow"

But still will it come?

In pain, in sorrow

Would tears be gone? 

Will my tomorrow come?

Is this a crime to feel alive? 

Is it a crime to cry at night?

Tell me why I'm afraid

Alive is my deepest nightmare

It follows me

Each pale day

I see it again

It grows within

Till every dawn

I still hope

The fear is gone

And light will come

The darkness will leave

With tears and grief

Feel, hope and faith

My heart, I try to believe....

I've heard once "Tomorrow"

But still will it come?

In pain, in sorrow

Would tears be gone? 

Will my tomorrow come?

No way to run

No cave to hide

No ray of sun

One moment alive

Will my tomorrow come?

Will that tomorrow come?
Will I ever try
Secrets to hide
Will old pain be gone?
Tears apart
Dream of my heart
This tomorrow to come

Will my tomorrow come... 

Forever in my heart

• For these long years
• I hid the tears
• From cold rain and harsh storm
• Along the fears
• For all passed years
• My secret lives forever in my soul

• Forever hoping,
• Forever believing
• The endless longing
• My blissful feeling
• Forever in my heart
• Forever within
• One line left apart
• So deep lives my sin

• For all holy dreams
• Through the frozen seas
• My song will flow so far
• Setting unseen tears in hearts

• Lost pages of diary
• Burnt paper, not memory
• One night wrote whole destiny

• Forever hoping,
• Forever believing
• The endless longing
• My blissful feeling
• Forever in my heart
• Forever within
• One line left apart
• So deep lives my sin

• Forever hoping,
• Forever believing
• The endless longing
• My blissful feeling
• Forever in my heart
• Forever within
• One line left apart
• So deep lives my sin

• Forever hoping,
• Forever believing

• Forever in my heart
• Forever within