I'll Watch You Behind

Only in such moments of fear

I could now see

What dwells in mess and what is so dear

That melody

Sounds forever in me

Being waiting for so long

I heard only one pure song

Still dwelling in me

Like drop of cristal sea

Like clear tear on dawn

So cold and forlorn

So soon, I know

I could never go

No step away

No move aside

Till the end of my way

I'll watch you behind

Lost lines of a poet unknown

Don't blame me for this

But dream nevergone

Will be my ever bliss

Long years of longing

Cold nights of dreams so cruel

They stil tear my heart

But I will never be apart

'cause I know the meaning of loneliness

Broken emptiness



So soon, I know

I could never go

No step away

No move aside

Till the end of my way

I'll watch you behind

Happy Birthday dear Kathy!!! =**

Sorry that so late but still Happy Birthday to you my dear!!
I wish you all the best in your life and thank you for just being who you are!
I'm happy to have such a nice, sweet, attentive and so on and on friend! ♥

And like one man once said - just leave who you are, don't change!

Love, hug and kiss
Trina

Just Me

Angel with deep eyes
Blue sparkles of wise
With a touch from paradise
It's not me
Definitely not me
'cause...

Cold and cruel
Full of lost lure
Blackhearted devil with sad eyes
Fallen dark angel tied with chains of lies
Empty soul, sold heart of a child
Turned to an insane mind
That's a real me
Just me

Broken marionette, who cares?
Dead or alive she still dares
To .. love
And it's enough
For me
Believe

Wide open eyes so naive I was
True answer for every why is because
Nothing left to forget, no silent relief
Still I remember every lie, believe
I would never forgive

Cold and cruel
Full of lost lure
Blackhearted devil with sad eyes
Fallen dark angel tied with chains of lies
Empty soul, sold heart of a child
Turned to an insane mind
That's a real me
Just me

Lost broken beauty
One fake spark of memory
Just a madman's dream...
Don't walk away
Lead me astray
Empty words of pain
That's a real me
Just me


Cold and cruel
Full of lost lure
Blackhearted devil with sad eyes
Fallen dark angel tied with chains of lies
Empty soul, sold heart of a child
Turned to an insane mind
That's a real me
Just me

Broken marionette, who cares?
Dead or alive she still dares
To .. love
And it's enough
For me
Believe

My Poison

I need no answer, no explanation
Of tears in my eyes
Pain is the name of my passion
Gates to my paradise
Living deep in blood
In everything I once loved

Don't say a word
Don't break the silence
It hurts and will hurt
But the suffering is so good....

You - a name of my pain every night
The shadow in every glow of light
My sweet poison killing wounded heart
So dear suffering of me
My bittersweet suffocation
So beautiful pain of me
My ever killing passion

One moment of death for eternal life
One second of pain for a night of love
One moment of bliss to get the eternity

Break my chains of dreambound
Cold lips are whispering
Never making even a sound
Don't break my believing

Don't say anything
Don't break the ice of silence
Let it hurt me deep
Still it hurts so good..

You - a name of my pain every night
The shadow in every glow of light
My sweet poison killing wounded heart
So dear suffering of me
My bittersweet suffocation
So beautiful pain of me
My ever killing passion

You - a name of my pain every night
The shadow in every glow of light
My sweet poison killing wounded heart
So dear suffering of me
My bittersweet suffocation
So beautiful pain of me
My ever killing passion

So dear suffering of me
My bittersweet suffocation
So beautiful pain of me
My ever killing passion

Before The Winter



Just dust remains

Beneath bare feet 

Keeping dear pains

All alive deep in me

 

Before the dawn of winter let me cry

With autumn rain

Let me feel it again

Before the white snow falls let me fly

With golden leaves

With tune of strings

Let me feel it once more

Before the winter comes

 

Wind blows now so cold

I'm not strong enough

To fight against the whole world

The only I wished was love

 

Before the dawn of winter let me cry

With autumn rain

Let me feel it again

Before the white snow falls let me fly

With golden leaves

With tune of strings

Let me feel it once more

Before the winter comes

 

Lost dignity 

For another beauty

Lust, violence, my blood

Burnt memory

Left broken in my past

 

Ripped pages of my diary

Lost lines of my teary story

Forgive me these tears behind the smile

Forgive me all fears so alive in my heart

 

Before the dawn of winter let me cry

With autumn rain

Let me feel it again

Before the white snow falls let me fly

With golden leaves

With tune of strings

Let me feel it once more

Before the winter comes

 

Before the winter comes... 

 

I try to find the reason why

But darkness is calling my name

Cold snow whispering to soul of mine

Flame is burning now, flame of my own shame

 

Before the dawn of winter let me cry

With autumn rain

Let me feel it again

Before the white snow falls let me fly

With golden leaves

With tune of strings

Let me feel it once more

Before the winter comes

 

Before the dawn of winter let me cry

With autumn rain

Let me feel it again

Before the white snow falls let me fly

With golden leaves

With tune of strings

Let me feel it once more

Before the winter comes

Inquisition

Forgive me for my life

Forgive me all untold lie

Let me see when I was wrong

Forgive me all love to what I belong

(Forgive me all years I was born)

No place, no silence

No heart, no soul

Eternal hell of one dear glance

Just let me know...

.. Why nothing has left

To forget

Why no heart to understand

To regret

Burning in flame

Of my own shame

Life is but a cruel game

No path to guide me away

No dear hand to hide

Life played me a fool again

Lost dream turned to lie

Nothing but a farewell

I send to the world

Now this inquisitor's flame

Silent prayer untold

End of story, welcome Hell

I'm not afarid

Of the words I once said

"Flame took her to her pale paradise. Once again, away from all pains. Silent days of fear and nightmares are gone. Cruel game is done. The end."

Purity and innocence

Will be reborn once again

Lost days of cold nightmares

Pale nights of pain

Dawn of new sun

Will be once done.

Weekend in Kiev

Hei kaikille!

Last Friday evening my friends and me went to Kiev again. We went to the station and after a long night of talking, watching Lieksa! on my cellphone and a short sleep we came to Kiev.
It was 6 am when we came to the station where my brother met us. Beautiful and cold Saturday morning! We've decided to meet at 10 am after unpacking things and breakfast.

 Walking around Kiev was great as always. :)
This time I was with both my best friends and it was so cool!


Shopping, walking, having a dinner in the McDonalds etc.
Saturday made everyone so tired but so happy. ;)

Next day was even better!

Sunday evening we went to the Apocalyptica concert!

It was the best evening ever! I've never felt so happy before! Really.. I've never felt such before. 

I cannot describe it with words 'cause it was just awesome! 

Here are some photos. ;) 

That was really great! Brilliant concert! Hope to meet them really soon again! 

Felt like in a dream after it. He heh. ;) 

On Monday we went back home. Long way on train from Kiev to Zaporizhzhya made us really tired again, but with such great memories. :) 

We were home near midnight. Tired but so happy I went to shower and then to bed 'cause next day I should  go to university. 

The only  thing that I can say that it's the best b-day present I could imagine for my 18th birthday that is really realy soon. ;) 

Hope tomorrow will be a beautiful day. ^^ 

See you soon! 

Hugs!!! 

-T.