New Year party.. :)

Hi everyone!

So now it's time of shopping, preparing, cooking and other stuff that is necessary for a nice party time after all :)
By the way are you ready for NY party?

Tomorrow my friends from university and I will have a party at my place and today we've done some shopping...

It wasn't so easy because everyone wants a bit different things, but still we've got some kind of a compromise ;)

Hope you all will also have a great time tomorrow! ;)
Happy New Year and all the best in this upcoming 2011! Let all your wishes come true! ;)

Cigarette's smoke

Lemon, ice and cigarette's smoke
Hidden tears in a glass of rum
One wish for white virgine snow
Smoke made all dreams be gone

No nights
We had shared together
No past
To remember, whatever
One last
Breath, sigh, glance... forever

Dream - one dark sin
Nightmare if anyone care
Forever within, forever in me

Smoke made my eyes hurt
Sparkling tears fell down
Diary's lines told "Still loving you"
Making me break now

No word
Left for me to say
No world
To live, just to stay
No amen
For me to pray

Just one way to fade away
To the lost 'n' dark hideaway

Hope - broken word
Kiss - another lost bliss
Darkened memories to kill

No safety
Another pain in me
No immortality
To cry and dream
Just dead reality
To escape the sin

Fading in the dark
I wished to lose my heart

To lose the heart, never feel again
The fear, the agony of pain, this cold rain
Falling inside my broken soul, black tears in vain...

Merry Christmas! :)

Hello everyone!

I just wanted to wish all the best to you and let every your wish come true! ;)

Here is a little present from me... :)

Silent night 

Full of magic and believing

Tiny light

Of stars above makes this evening

Special and bright

Silent Christmas Eve

Childish hope, young heart

Will dream and believe

Angels write one more part

Fallen star

Make your wish and it will come true

From afar

All dreams, ever hopes you once knew

From all my heart

I send a very Merry Christmas to you! 

Hyvää Joulua kaikille! :) 

The leaves of our tree

Days are flying by
Soe dreams were born
Another ones had to die
Words that were torn
Turned into a cry

Beneath the tree we met
Our destiny
Breath while you still can
The eternity
Will take us anyway

The leaves are fallen
From that lonely tree
A child of one longer
Whose dreams I believe
The leaves of our tree
Are still going down
Don't let it fade, not now

The tree of dreams
A hope of lost wishes
One day I still believe
Caring of deep oceans

Leaves falling like tears
Wind's whisper like calling
Like night loves darkness
I'm afraid of lonely howling

Don't let tree die
That tree was I

The leaves are fallen

From that lonely tree

A child of one longer

Whose dreams I believe

The leaves of our tree

Are still going down

Don't let it fade, not now

Another night, the last one

Seven hours of dumb agony

Counting seconds to be gone

I've go - there is no good in me

I took powers from those

Whom loved once

I turned to dust their hopes

In hearts they could loose

I'm selfish, greedy, much worse

Than all could imagine though

Still even I had dreams and hopes

While night goes, silently flows

The time slowly passes

Blood's running on the white roses

Making them red

Second - time is dead

They're red

But I'm not like that..

While night still holds

That tree believes and hopes

The leaves are fallen

From that lonely tree

A child of one longer

Whose dreams I believe

The leaves of our tree

Are still going down

Don't let it fade, not now

Don't let tree die

'cause that was I...

Unforgiven

Trough the cold lands
I flew following the heart
White desert without hot sands
I drew the only right path

Slight believing
My all everything
Hidden dreaming
Hope killed the old sin
Silence holds relieving
Share the feeling
Now I'm unfogiven

Telling soul to a stranger
I gave him all dreams
Sharing all with this angel
I tried to heal his broken wings

Slight believing 

My all everything

Hidden dreaming

Hope killed the old sin

Silence holds relieving 

Share the feeling

Now I'm unfogiven

Hope killed the old sin

Silence holds relieving

Share the feeling

Now I'm forgiven

The darkest sins are gone

For the only hope

My all dreams dwell alone....

Slight believing 

My all everything

Hidden dreaming

Hope killed the old sin

Silence holds relieving 

Share the feeling

Now I'm unfogiven

Unforgiven

The only way

High believing

My hideaway

 Unforgiven

Now I'm unforgiven

Slight believing 

My all everything

Hidden dreaming

Hope killed the old sin

Silence holds relieving 

Share the feeling

Now I'm unfogiven

One Lost Light

Another second passed by
Try to live, but not die
All of us will once go away

To eternity we will fly
But another time
Believe me and see bright winter day

Teras and happiness
Death and eternity
Black brightness
Keep this smile for me

One lost light
Another pure hope
One last light
I keep it for you
One lost light
Will show us the world

Silent night full of
Sweet dreams, secret sins
Pure time of lost love

One lost light

Another pure hope

One last light

I keep it for you

One lost light

Will show us the world

One lost light

One last light

One lost light

One lost light

Another pure hope

One last light

I keep it for you

One lost light

Will show us the world

A lot of snow.... Winter came here :)

Hi! I'm sorry for my long absence, I had to think about a lot of things and was pretty busy in university.

Last weekends it was snowing pretty hard and now here is a lot of snow! Jiihaa! ^^
It seems that it'll be snowing tonight again, hope so, hope so ;)

Today I had only two lectures - Ecology and History  (some time for a rest;) ) So I was listening to the music and writing some poems...
Maybe that could seem a bit strange, I don't know, but there were some Nightwish songs that always remind me about winter. Perhaps, it's because of that I've heard them at first in winter.. it was 2 years ago.
But every time when I'm listening to these 4 songs I remember falling snow and silent winter nights.
These sonngs are: "Nightwish", "Lagoon", "The Escapist" and "While Your Lips Are Still Red". The video to the last one has a "winter mood". Those ones who had seen it will understand me very well ;)

Now I'm going out to do some Christmas shopping :)
So see you later and take care!

Yours, Katariina =*

P.S. and here is the video ;) Enjoy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UrcxoYkYO4E

Under dark veil of pain
Lived one tiny ray
Clouds dropped cold rain
Wind took me away
Awakening came again

Silence is broken
Hearts left unspoken
Don't fade away...

I could cry that forever
But never it worked
Dreams and hopes are together
Silently I walked
Praying for being gone
Hiding my tears I walk through the dawn

I won't say a word
I don't want to be hurt
Again like it was before
Not for now, not anymore
I wrote such long ago
I'm out of this game
Whispering only one name

Nothing
Makes me forget
Nothing
Let me regret
This living
While I'm longing for ....

Silently I walked
Praying for being gone
Hiding my tears I walk through the dawn

I wish to be just a cold tear
On your cheek
Oh how I wish...

I wish to be just a memory
Of forest wind
Oh how I wish...

I want to turn into an ash
Grey dust covering my lust
Oh this was my only wish

In the end I will say
"My dear, goodbye.."
Silently walking away
From this life
My soul leads yours astray
While heart hasn't yet died.....

Away-Astray

• I through my weapon 
• Away
• My road now goes on
• Astray
• A hope forever will flow
• Away

• Away, away, away
• My path goes away
• Now fading again
• My heart flew away
• Erasing all pain
• Away, away, away

• You went then away
• Leaving me all alone
• I want you to stay
• Knowing it you're gone
• My soul, don't fade away!

• Away, away, away
• All is gone away
• With fading dark veil
• My words were in vain
• Deep neverending pain 
• Away, away, away

• Heart, you have broken
• Soul that being stroken
• By your sweet grace
• I thought that was my place

• Away
• I wish just to fade 
• Away
• Another step to take
• Away..

• Away, away, away
• You've gone away
• Leaving me no way
• No chance to explain
• Giving me all this pain
• You broke me again

• Away, away, away
• Leaving no way
• Away, away, away
• Fading with pain
• Away, away, away.... 

Sunset or Sunrise ?

Sunset or sunrise
Drew my paradise
Sunset or sunrise
I lay on cold ice

Another winter dawn
Long hours of cold
I dreamt of the snow
But tears still untold
When sunrise is gone

Sunset or sunrise
Drew my paradise
Sunset or sunrise
I lay on cold ice
Sunrise or sunset
Would I then forget
All that you've said?
Sunrise or sunset
You'll forever regret

For one tear turned into icedrop
With the kiss time will stop
All the fears became just a snowfall

Sunrise or sunset
Would I forget
Hurt words that you said?
Sunset or sunrise
Revived my paradise
For bright shiny eyes



Sunset or sunrise
Drew my paradise
Sunset or sunrise
I lay on cold ice
Sunrise or sunset
Would I then forget
All that you've said?
Sunrise or sunset
You'll forever regret


Take my dreams and hopes
While I still can breath
Now I have nothing to loose
Until this red dawn came



Sunset or sunrise
Drew my paradise
Sunset or sunrise
I lay on cold ice
Sunrise or sunset
Would I then forget
All that you've said?
Sunrise or sunset
You'll forever regret


Take my everything
I don't need it anymore
Lies never being
My guilt forever more


Sunset or sunrise
Drew my paradise
Sunset or sunrise
I lay on cold ice
Sunrise or sunset
Would I then forget
All that you've said?
Sunrise or sunset
You'll forever regret

Sunrise or sunset
Sunset or sunrise
Sunrise or sunset
Sunset or sunrise...

Ancient Curse

As always I thought
I could then move on
Still none in this world
Can't make you be gone

I wrote it down
Word by word
But just no sound
Left now untold

You are still silent as this dark cold night
I wish this desire was gone
You cannot see my dreams, maybe it's right
Because that would be too hard
For me to believe, for you to keep it inside
Just don't leave me alone

I wish I could make you happy
To give you more light
I wish to be the only your memory
Even for one only night
Cleaning this sadness that is within
So deep in your heart

Still I am too far from this hope
That hurts me so bad
You know you're not alone
Don't care of tears of that
Who isn't worth a call

Silence of blame
That covers me now
Whispering my name
They told me just go
All nightmares again
Watch my fall...

You are still silent as this dark cold night

I wish this desire was gone

You cannot see my dreams, maybe it's right

Because that would be too hard

For me to believe, for you to keep it inside

Just don't leave me alone

My heart will stop again

If you just say

That you don't need me

Please be my pain

I know I'm just a fool

And that is truth

Sitting in the dark room

I'm writing to you

Now you can blame me
But I don't care because
All these words are killing me
Like the ancient curse....

Why feelings couldn't just die?
Why do I have to suffer?
I wish I could forever lie
to me, to you, to everyone
Being wrong it could hurt less
My heart, my mind and soul
Life would be easier if I was heartless

Could love heal
Old wounds, deep scars?
Could hope kill
My agony for these stars?

Kill me to ease this hellish pain
It eats me from inside
Dream me into Eden again
Please, show me the light

Could love simply die?
Never tearing me apart
Let me fly into this blue sky
Leaving that broken heart

Don't look into my teary eyes
They won't tell you the reason
Don't try to made me tell lies
Just pain still goes on

I know you'll never let me fall
You'll never let me break down
Forever you know feel of my soul
Even losing your golden crown
You will hear my silent call

If does it matter
A king or a dreamer
True beauty lies within
This is the only pure truth for me

Never I would love someone
For what or who he is
The king of whole world or
Has only wind in his hands

The truth lives forever in the heart
This is the only reality for me
No matter who you are
You're just everything for me

The only world for me
Lies in you
The eternity in your eyes
Made only truth
The silence turned into a dream
Within you
Drawing this lost paradise
I saw in you....

First Time

Singing that song
Until the pale dawn
Drinking red wine
Just for the first time

Writing the lines
Bewaring the lies
I wrote down the name
For the verse be the same

White snow falls
For the first time
Pale red dawns
For the first time
All written songs
For the first time
My heart still calls
For the first time

Angelsong left the light
For me behind
To follow one only path
Of one pure heart

Behind dark bars
I look up at the stars
Counting them high
In the cold blue sky

Gentle kiss has come
For the first time
Seconds fast run
For the first time
Shot of a gun
For the first time
One true love
For the first time

Long nights took my sadness away
Leading my heart forever astray
I believe I will find my way

Deep dream
For the first time
Secret sin
For the first time
Ever desire
For the first time
Burning fire
For the first time

I wish I could recall
my past, every moment of lust
I wish I had it all
for the last fear burnt to dust

Every sight
For the first time
Sweet night
For the first time
Moment of light
For the first time
Nowhere to hide
For the first time....

For the first time
I call your name
For one sight
I'll cry again
For the last time...

First Snow

Pale morn, grey sky
Cold air, white snow
Old thrills left behind
Now gone with one wind's blow

First snow covered the ground
My path became innocent white
That was just a dream losing its sound
Virgin's heart lives only in the night
Losing everything that was once found

My silence is just for now
Peaceful rest for the dark
Fears so deep, never gone
One night to find a secret path

For this true I've never thought
I could see being blind
For that fatal night of lost world
I could win losing one fight
Only this time I will fall ever bleeding
Last breath through the silence broken believing

For the cold snow I fall
For the last sigh forever gone
For your silence I long

My rest lies in this fatal night
Don't let me fall
You know my wish left behind
Don't let me go
For my heart still beating for the light
That one could change it all
Just to recall that last time

For this thrill
I don't know
For true feel
I will go
Oh, just heal
My scars fro the past

For last year
This cold snow
One my tear
Will now recall
I still care
Shoot me now and let me fall

This dawn showed me truth
Painting all sins white
Retelling last winter's story I knew
This memory I cannot hide
My pain I've told you

"I don't know what to do, where to hide
What should I do losing my sigh?
I cannot say it to you 'cause this is my pain
You could but don't want to take it away...
It hurts just my soul, not yours one
It would kill me once more making fall... "

Remember my soul, it sang to you
My falling heart will bleed with red dawn
Forgive me, but it's truth
Forever I will believe that I am not gone

White snow fallen tonight
Will cry for me
Light angel's sigh
Will heal me
Giving me another life
Forgive me for now...
 

Guilty

Rename me now
I'm not allowed to live
Reborn of soul
I follow one breath

No way to forgive me
'cause sins are unforgiveness
Now I am guilty
The cost is the loneliness
Never chance for blind to see

Erase my memory
I shouldn't remember 
Because of the dark sin
I'm guilty forever 

No, I am too insane 
To be called by a name
No, I should be burnt by flame
To be killed by this pain
Should the beast be the same?

Time by time
The hope took me
Side by side
I dreamt to see
Feel to feel
Alone I'm gone
Hand in hand
We all will fall

Guilty
Forever my name
Guilty
For the name of pain
Guilty 
I felt it all
Guilty
My downfall

No way to save the soul of wild
Your prayer will change my mind
One angel, a saviour for all mankind

Guilty!
This is who I am
Guilty!
They cried my name
Guilty 
Should die in pain
Guilty 
I feel the same
Guilty

Guilty 
It was my name
Guilty 
I lose this game
Guilty 
Gold turned to dust
Guilty
For all my lust

Burnt soul fell down
For last pure sound
It revived all sins
Forgiveness for all dark thrills

Guilt is not a way
To die, to fade, but to escape

This is the like I always feel
Deep wounds neverhealed
Forever it's just my fault
My eternal downfall

Guilty 
I feel so now
Guilty 
The only sound
Guilty 
I want to run
Guilty 
Show me the sun
Guilty...

Guilty
Save my lost heart
Guilty
Leave fears apart
Guilty
I don't want to be
Guilty
Just let me see

Forever guilty, my lost memory
Ever lost for all the darkest sins
Guilty...