Missing..

Yesterday it was a bit sad evening for me... I thought a lot about different things and listened to the sad music :\

Also writing poems helped me to understand something really important for me. 

I got that not always we can change something, sometimes we can change nothing... and sometimes it's hard... again a lot of pain, tears... ohh... 

But a tiny hope still left. But also so often I ask myself: "What is this all for?" and find no answer... 

In such time I feel just cold emptiness within.. and I don't know how long it will be there.. even I don't know how to kill this pain in my heart... 

I thought that poetry could help, and for a long time it was so, but now it's harder and harder to write something, 'cause every verse is really personal and.. it's like demonstrate all your feelings to everyone.. but in the moment of writing I don't care about this. 

Still reading my own writing I can't say how long I could stand all of this.. 

And even now, sitting and writing this blog, a bit sad and with tears in my eyes I think about very important person for me... 

Maybe I should thank him, it's because of him I began writing poems. 

One day I will say it to him personally, I hope.... 

Now I'll go to school. I have not a long working day today and this makes me happy ^^. I'll come home today at about 14...  

Maybe I also post some new poems here.

So check it out ;)